Too tough to teach

You deadly minx
I adore your brutal delicacy
I worship your volatile imagination
I'm crippled by your innocence

I find it some kind of wonderful how clumsy you are
You mean well
I'm a little irritated by your lack of time management
I'm a fine one to speak

Somewhere in you lies the makings of a horror
It's your ability to get your way
It's your way with words
Even though at times you don't repeat what was said
Instead, what your mind interpreted and invented
I love you anyway because I believe you mean well

You ought to learn when to take off the mask though
Otherwise it veils you from whom you seek
Those you invite in will debate whether they're truly welcome
Avoid by all means to bend the truth away from those you yearn to keep
I had to learn these along the way, thanks to exquisite suffering

Avoid by all means to manipulate in the name of security
Territory is a hell of a thing.
It distinguishes the world from what is yours
And I thinks it's wonderful for us to have our place in the world
Even so, never forget that we own nothing, no one

My beloved nectar-filled-early-morning-breeze-as-mortals-welcome-the-sun
Remember you become transparent to your kind
Fight ownership to the end, it will destroy you whole
When you find your place, don't just let the doors and windows open
Let yourself be open too
Then the future will hold.

Too tough to teach...

verbalising, what a curse

My reactions are not spontaneous, there's a build up.

Problem is I'm not so good at letting my feelings be known..

Particularly feelings I figure are petty, or make me out as a victim.

So I shut down while masking an implosion... 

Not to say I like it, I don't!

I wish to speak but I don't know the right thing to say.

Too many things haunt my mind and silence is the best I can manage.

I especially hate arguments.

Too bad Ms Feline, human interaction is built on conflict

We won't always get along, and at some point you will have to let your feelings be known.

The voice of reason always tells me, so I try... 

And trial makes room for misinterpretation and misunderstanding!

If I could please everyone.

I love learning so I appreciate instruction.

I love learning so I want the opportunity to try without much help.

(it's a personal problem for someone a little too ambitious)

Many things I've done have proven to be mistakes as a result.

I've made my flaws visible for the taking,..

I could do with more caution I suppose.

Sometimes however, these mistakes happen because I was too cautious.

Because I left no room to show the me element, because i was focused on instruction.

I might be rationalising bull, but I need to hear the sound of my own voice.

Whether it's trembling, or my projection's off, or grammar, whatever... 

I need to hear the sound of my own voice so that I can measure my growth on this journey.

What happens when I have no instruction and I have to fend for myself?

what happens when I have no one to tell me how to articulate myself?

I need to hear my own voice, It's not selfish, it's the only way I can be of use to anyone.