With
it dies parts of me I thought would exist forever… I thought I was content
having very little expectations, I didn’t realise that this filtered into
my standards as well.
I
was shoved out of my comfort zone; challenging my fears when the risk carried
thereof could have had very negative impacts on my family, career and event
social life… I followed my heart even though it could have cost me my financial
security.
I
accepted some friends for what they are; features in my life story! Others went
from leading roles to extras, and I learned that it’s OK, I’m free.
I
let go of someone I love dearly, not because they are bad but because I have
learnt to accept that I have a responsibility not to care for someone more than
they do for themselves. I had to come to terms with the fact that trying to
save someone from themselves or guide them, or whatever form of justification, is a reflection of a need within my own self and so long
as I am concentrating on the other I myself stay starving.
In
this month I danced under the stars, surrendered, trusted, laughed from my
soul, and flowed from my core. I let love lead me in a way that’s foreign to me.
I refined.
I
warded off feelings of doubt, guilt, panic (well, relatively, lol) and looked
into an unlikely soul to see utopia. Sounds idealistic I know but it’s very
rarely that you come across someone that says “you’re amazingly beautiful… and
that’s an encompassing word… flaws and all” and they mean it, show it, and
nurture it within their own self ( I’m not always the easiest person to manage,
I know this for a fact)... New Destinations
I
remembered a friend, honoured her, counted and still count the ways in which
she blesses me. I know better than the self-defeatism and asking why me; how could I
be so favoured? Instead I am grateful. From beyond this physical realm of
existence this amazing soul shows me love in unbelievable ways. Words cannot
begin to express what she means to me.
Thank you Liepollo!
A
perfect polarity: Septembers are always a time of metamorphosis for me, all for
the better... but during the moment they are the hardest part of my year. I
think I was a lot more alert this year though, perhaps thanks to the excitement. I realised a big dream in my books;
co-leading a historical event in my country Ba re e ne re Literature Festival
and setting a very high bar for my future prospects. I am soooooooo grateful!
